at 1.30am tonight, i received a msg from odi.
a msg at this hour from the bbc of bangi, i thought, this cant be good.
i read the sms.
ok somebody died.
read the name.
read the whole message again.
ina passed away??
immediately called odi back to reconfirm.
apparently, as of now, nobody knows why she passed away.
the last time i saw her, believe it or not, was on my wedding day. she came, all the way from selayang, where she worked as a pharmacist, to witness my akad nikah.
thats the last i heard/saw of her.
kawan2 bangi ni.
even though i dont contact them a lot (or at all),
im always waiting for their wedding invitation.
but instead of receiving my friend's wedding invitation, we're invited to her funeral?
the sadness is beyond words.
rasa bersalah tidak keep in touch dgn arwah selepas wedding day dulu.
it has been exactly 2 years.
jenazah akan dikebumikan pagi esok.
aku nak pegi jumpa ibu dan adik nya.
tak sampai hati memikirkan ifan kehilangan her only sister, yg selalu menjerit "rifhan!" bile ifan did not play well during bola baling match.
dan juge ibu yg melihat anaknya pergi dulu sebelum dia?
aku tahu aku tak dapat luahkan kesedihan dgn cara yg berkesan.
i wanna know, what happened to my friend?
knowing her, mmg dia selalu berahsia kalau ada benda2 yg buat orang lain risau.
sepanjang aku berkawan dgn dia dari skolah rendah sampai habis skolah menengah, mmg selalu jugak bertelingkah. masing2 keras kepala n nak lawan sapa betul.
kawan, biasa lah.
tapi mmg best datang lepak rumah dia,
masa form 5 ramai2 tusyen kimia ke fizik? kat rumah dia.
pastu celebrate birthday where odi gave her 2 ketul sanitary pads as a bday present.???
macam2 lagi lah!
i can't believe she's gone.
i know, we have drifted apart since we left school but i always think about her (as i do with all my old friends!)
bile drive balik rumah dari jalan besar nampak rumah beliau yg dulu bumbung biru pastu tukar jadi kaler hijau (macam somebody poured green paint all over her house n gate to change their color), and pikir, hmm rumah ina..
ina i'm gonna miss you.
aku nak pegi solat sunat.